no one counts down the days until I come home.
No one tags me as the ” best friend” or the “one you can’t live without” anymore. just the “someone I met when I was younger” post.
I introduced almost ALL of these people to eachother and somehow they’re all best friends without me. Don’t try and tell me it’s because I left because one of them lives in Wyoming and has lived there since I was in Middle School. These people have all been my friends for so long but I guess when it comes down to it, I know who’s important to who.
Who comes and says bye to me when I leave.
Who “forgets” about me when I cried all summer about how left out and alone I felt.
Guess I know that the winter will be exactly like summer. Mallory, Jenna, Robert, and Carmen hanging out all the time without me.
You can apologize and say you didn’t realize it was a big deal. One of your moms will say that I just worry too much. But one of your moms knows that I am extremely upset. My mom knows as well. I honestly thought some of you would be my best friends forever. But most of you have changed so much I don’t even know who you are. Things change, I know that. People are different but honestly, some of you are so different I don’t even know who you are. Some of you are so inconsiderate about my feelings.
And I won’t take it this time.
ONE time of being left out and being the one who isn’t invited. One time of you “forgetting” my existence and I’m done. Totally done. I don’t care how close our families are. I am not going to be let down again. I just won’t. So you decide. What do you value just the partying and people you’ve just met or people you’ve known for a long time- maybe your lifetime, people that are there for you time and time again but somehow you seem to value the drinks and the drugs more than an actual friendship.
I won’t be let down again. I really won’t.
i know the feeling. all to well.
but you better have some SERIOUS plans to spend time with me over the break or i will come to your house and steal you.
i know where you live and i will come. I am not against abducting you.
just so you know.
Janae, I love you so much. (: I want to see you during the break for sure!!!!!!!!!
You couldn’t have just talked to me while you were here.. in person? Please call me if you have stuff to say. I don’t want to discuss this over a computer.
